WELCOME TO  PAÞA'S
REALITY !  

WHO AM I? 

WHY AM I HERE?
WHERE DO I COME FROM?
WHERE DO I GO TO?
WHERE DOES TIME FLOW FROM?
WHERE DOES TIME FLOW TO?
WHAT DOES THE PLACE I LIVE ON?
DOES THE SPACE I LIVE IN REALLY EXIST?  

ONCE ONE COMES INTO EXISTENCE, OTHERS ARE HAPPY BUT  HE IS  UNHAPPY.
WHEN HE DIES OTHERS ARE NOT HAPPY, BUT  HE IS HAPPY.
WHY IS THIS SO?


    I AM "PAÞA". I THINK MY NAME IMPLIES EVERYTHING. SO I WAS GIVEN BIRTH IN A KNOWN PLACE AND DATE. THEY CAN BE IMPORTANT JUST FOR ME. AFTER FOR A WHILE, NAMELY LITTLE ME, I WAS SENT TO PRIMARY SCHOOL. AFTER SPENDING MY VERY LOVELY 5 YEARS IN THAT PLACE, I WAS ALSO SENT TO SECONDARY SCHOOL ( IS THIS A DESTINY FOR EVERY TURKISH CHILD?). AFTER WASTING MY 8 (EIGHT) YEARS ( THAT I COULD DO EVERYTHING RELATED WITH THIS TOTAL EDUCATION IN 3 YEARS, BUT WE HAD STRICT RULES WHICH COULD NOT ALLOW ME TO JUMP OVER THE OLD STYLE EDUCATION ). BUT I AM SO DETERMINED THAT I WOULD CLIMB THE LADDER OF LIFE STEP BY STEP. WHEN I BEGAN THE HIGH SCHOOL ( WHICH TURKS NAME IT AS "LÝSE" )I WAS JUST 13 ( THIRTEEN ) YEARS OLD. I BEGAN KABATAÞ BOY'S LYCEE ( WHICH  TURKS NAME IT AS "KABATAÞ ERKEK LÝSESÝ", EVEN THOUGH IT NO LONGER IS BOY'S LYCEE ) BY THE SCHOLARSHIP OF "TÜBÝTAK" ( INSTITUTION OF TURKISH SCIENTIFIC AND TECHNICAL RESEARCHES ). WITHOUT DECREASING MY ACCELERATION, I FINISHED BOY'S LYCEE IN TOTALLY THREE YEARS ( I SWEAR, ONLY IN THREE YEARS ). I ALREADY GOT USED TO TAKE GENERAL EXAMINATIONS LIKE ANATOLIAN, AND SCIENCE LYCEE, TÜBÝTAK. SO IT WAS NOT SURPRISE TO BE PLACED IN PHYSICS DEPARTMENT AT BOÐAZÝÇÝ UNIVERSITY. AFTER COMBATTING WITH THE WHOLE THEORETICAL ASPECTS OF PHYSICS ( WHICH I EXPECTED TO INVOLVE IN THE PHYSICAL SIDE OF THE EVENTS AND MATTER, BUT THE REVERSE HAPPENED )FOR FIVE YEARS, I HAD NOT BEEN SATISFIED SO THAT I DECIDED TO FINISH ONE MORE AND DIFFERENT UNIVERSITY. AND I WON THE DEPARTMENT OF INTERNATIONAL RELATIONS AT KOÇ UNIVERSITY [ MOREOVER I WAS AT TOP 150 AMONG 800,000 ( EÝGHT HUNDREDS THOUSANDS )IN THE UNIVERSITY ENTRANCE EXAMINATION,ÖSYM ]. THESE ARE THE UNIMPORTANT ANECDOTES IN MY POOR LIFE. I AM NOW SENIOR IN THE DEPARTMENT OF INTERNATIONAL RELATIONS AT KOÇ UNIVERSITY ( I DO NOT THINK THAT I WILL ATTEND A THIRD ONE. I AM SERIOUS, NOT MAKING JOKE.. I AM FED UP ) . THIS IS THE VERY BRIEF LETTER OF MY CHRONOLOGICAL LIFE. I HAD SO MUCH TO TELL YOU. BUT THE TIME, PLACE AND BEING ARE NOT APPROPRIATE FOR IT. PROBABLY, ALL THE CAUSES COME TOGETHER, SO I CAN.